"Infinite Possibilities"

I hold him in my arms today.  He’s just two days old! I look at his sweet, beautiful little face and feel a great peacefulness. In this minute.. this very second, there is nothing but the inexplicable joy of his being.  His opened yet unseeing eyes seemed to convey great wisdom as though in the very beginning, we hold the answers of the Universe. 

To hold little Zach, brings me back to the first days of my own children who are grown men now.  Those first, precious moments that have no expectations, only immeasurable wonder, are revisited as I kiss the top of his funny shaped little head.  I let memories float into my thoughts, singing songs, reading books, playing ball, hugging, laughing, and kissing.  And for a minute, I think only of the sweet glory of a new life coming into the world. I hand baby Zach off to the next loving arms, say my goodbyes and head home, lost in thoughts of days gone by and the reality of life today. I think of my sons then and now. I think of that little baby boy and wonder about the choices he will make in this big old world.

I often look at my life and wonder how did I get to this place, this situation?  Because it’s not where I was headed!  I have had an amazing journey filled with twists and turns, shortcuts and traffic jams, nailed it spot on and never quite got the hang of it. I’ve loved a ton, had my heart broken in two, married the right man 3 times and relished in my time solo.  I have reached for the stars and scrapped the bottom of the barrel. And the one thing that has always kept me going forward was the voice in my head that belonged to my Mom and my Dad, saying.. “You can do anything that you set your mind too”. I tried to set that voice inside the minds of my sons. Sometimes they hear it, sometimes their fears and insecurities drown out my words.  And sometimes, I am disappointed in the failure of my own belief in their choices.  Today, I held a new baby whose world is a blank slate, and today my grown son made a very bad choice that will make it very difficult for him to look to the future with promise.

  So Dear Baby Zach, what will you do with this opportunity before you? The possibilities are infinite.  You truly can be anything that you want for you are blessed with a loving family. But little Zach, they will not choose for you.  They will care for you and teach you and do their best to prepare you.  But you will follow your own path. Ahead of you lies great adventures but they are not without peril.  You looked at me with eyes that told me of the Universe.  You already know that love is what gets you what you need.  Enjoy the ride, watch out for the bumps in the road, think before you do anything, try to do the right thing, and listen for the voice that tells you that you are the best there ever was and that you can do anything you set your mind to.

Believe first in yourself, then convince the little ones.  Then keep trying to convince them when they forget.